Unexpected Transformations: A memoir of a Hindu youth camp, by Arnav Chakravarty
“God is dead. We have killed him.”
-Friedrich Nietzsche, Thus Spoke Zarathustra
From 9th grade through my freshman year at New York University (NYU), I lived the typical Indian teenager’s life. It revolved around four things: good grades, competitive debate, tennis, and my friends. Sure, I celebrated all the major Hindu festivals, including Durga Puja, Saraswati Puja, Diwali, Holi, etc. but I knew very little about my religion and made little time to learn. My religion was important only on holidays and celebrations. It meant that I got nice clothes, performed dances and plays during the pujas, and hung out with my friends. This was fine while I was at home in Houston.
However, when I came to NYU, I left everything behind. I was alone in an unfamiliar city, left to myself for the next four years of my life. I wanted the same sense of community I had in high school, but had no idea where to find it. This past year, I started attending a shakha* close to NYU in an attempt to find that community. The shakha was a good experience: it was comprised mostly of college students and young professionals, and it was a good way to spend my Thursday nights. I was sporadically learning about my own religion, but I was more interested in finding friends than finding religion. When I was invited to the Northeast Yuva Vargh (youth camp), I said yes thinking that it was essentially a retreat for high school seniors, college students, and young professionals. I would meet some great people, stay up late at night having fun, and come back refreshed for the rest of the spring semester. My friend mentioned that the vargh would help me explore some spiritual questions that I normally wouldn’t consider, and since I had made a New Year’s Resolution to understand more of my Hindu heritage, I thought this event was as fun an event as any to start keeping that resolution.
The first morning was akin to a culture shock. I was woken up by a friend at 7 am. On cue, I started groaning and complaining, but quickly quieted down when I realized that he had gone to sleep an hour after I had slept and woken up an hour earlier in order to organize the morning activities. I was used to waking up at noon, rolling around in bed for an hour, and not starting anything useful until 2 pm on any given Saturday. So, when I was told that I must be ready to start the day’s activities by 8 am, I scoffed at the suggestion. However, as I watched other swayamsevaks get ready without needing any outside motivation (i.e. a kick to the kidneys or a good dose of freezing cold water in the face) I knew that I had to also, for at least the next two days, force myself to do the same or risk being thoroughly embarrassed in front of everyone.
The phrase “peer pressure,” used proverbially or as a term of art, carries a very negative connotation. It bears images of teenagers or young adults acquiescing to their friends’ demands to smoke, drink, or otherwise engage in illicit activities just to fit into a social group. However, the positive peer pressure dynamic is present in a very different context at the yuva vargh: it becomes a tool that is used to instill discipline, responsibility, and order among otherwise very rowdy college students and young professionals. Every time a shikshak called “daksha”, I was amazed at how quickly everyone stopped what they were doing and came to attention. There was no delinquency: if you were “bold” enough to not pay attention to the speaker, you would be standing alone, with 30 pairs of eyes bearing down upon you, wondering why you could not follow a simple command.
But you weren’t standing to attention just to listen to some boring lecture. The activities at the vargh were thoroughly enjoyable. Niyuddha, a form of Indian martial arts, was taught both days by fellow students who had previous knowledge of the art. For someone who had very little exposure to any kind of martial arts before coming to shakha and the vargh, this was a unique experience. By the end of the vargh, I had learned a three kick combination that could knock someone out cold (unfortunately, I have yet to properly test my newly acquired skills). The games and the scavenger hunt were not only physically challenging but also intellectually invigorating. The games had something for everyone: for the competitive person, winning in dodge ball or kabaddi was paramount; for the problem solver, a series of riddles, number games, and brainteasers awaited.
When I described these activities to my suitemate back home, he was amazed that a collection of high school seniors, college students, and young professionals were so into such “kiddy” games. After all, never in a million years would you find college kids playing these games at a dorm party. But, the games were incredibly successful because they weren’t played aimlessly: each game had an underlying message and honed essential skills that are required for success in any field or profession. Seemingly simple things, like proper communication, logical thinking, team work, and trust were emphasized in each of the games. The message hit home because of the competitive element: If you didn’t trust your teammates, or weren’t willing to work together, you would lose. And no one, no matter how apathetic or unwilling, likes to lose. This method may seem “kiddy” to the outsider, but multi-million dollar corporations and agencies spend thousands of dollars every year on workshops that attempt to instill the same values into their employees. I’m willing to bet that the games at the vargh are more successful than the workshops are.
We did all this in good fun at the vargh, but for me, the most important part of the vargh was the hour or so we spent each day in our discussions (charchas). Truthfully, it has always been very difficult for me to balance spirituality and my desire to do well in my academics, sports, etc. I always found myself pushing spirituality aside to concentrate on more pertinent tasks, like the next exam, the next debate tournament, or the next tennis match. Moreover, trying to maintain some balance between success and hanging out with my friends was already hard enough. I just didn’t have time for spirituality. This was my justification, and for the vast majority of people, it was enough.
However, as I sat down talking to people who had either a) managed to strike that balance or b) found religion important enough to try and find some spiritual balance, I was in unfamiliar surroundings. I was used to being around friends who fervently believed that anything unrelated to material success or reward could be sacrificed. Sure, we were happy with what we had accomplished, but was happiness only defined along a material dimension? Was it worth it to ignore the spiritual aspect of our lives? Was God really dead?
Above all else, this vargh has shown me that Nietzsche is wrong. It is true that we routinely ignore our spiritual lives and the teleology of religion and instead make material success the basis of all our actions. But that does not mean that God is dead; rather, God is simply waiting. Waiting for us to realize that spirituality and material responsibility can not only co-exist, but flourish if we put in the effort. Why? Taking the time to practice our religion instills within us self-discipline, confidence, leadership, respect, and a sense of community that can carry us farther than we could ever envision if we only consider our material well being. The students who were leading the vargh were living proof of this.
As I sat around talking to my peers about ways to balance our lives, I found that I wasn’t alone in dealing with this problem. To some degree, everyone encounters this conflict. The simple question becomes, are we willing to work harder to find that balance? Prior to the vargh, I would have gone with the tyranny of the majority and flatly refused. The harsh reality of the material world was hard enough to navigate.
However, this weekend has shown me otherwise. Improving our spiritual selves only helps us in navigating the real world. It gives us a way to move outside of the constant pressure cooker that we live in, even if for a fleeting moment. I was lucky enough to spend an entire weekend away from that pressure. I came in hoping to have a good time. I had a great time, but left with far more intimate knowledge of myself than I could have ever imagined. Talk about unexpected.
*A shakha is a weekly gathering of people to learn about and preserve Hindu culture through yoga, games, discussions, etc. (To learn more, please visit www.hssus.org.)
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April 1st, 2009 21:31
very inspiring!
April 2nd, 2009 17:44
Completely agree with your description of the Yuva Vargh. Good job!
April 2nd, 2009 20:55
This is a really inspiring article, nice job
April 2nd, 2009 22:29
Excellent article, Arnav!!
April 3rd, 2009 03:54
I am so happy to see you launch yourself on a deeper personal journey toward happiness, fulfillment, and a life of meaning. May you go from strength to strength and be a source of strength to others. Keep up the good work and your writing habbit.
April 3rd, 2009 08:03
This is one of the most inspiring articles I have read in a long long time . I having grown up and spent all my life in India , very close to family and “religion” haven’t had the faintest idea that I was living in a culture as rich as ours .But you have described the entire experience so beautifully that I am craving to have an enriching experience like yours .
You have made us all very proud !!!!!
April 3rd, 2009 08:12
Hey Arnab…great realizations and true ones. It was indeed inspiring to read your article. Keep it up…:)
April 3rd, 2009 09:00
This is one of the best articles I have ever read…I am really glad to see that you have really good writing skills.. and understanding about life and self realization.
Wish you luck for your future..
April 3rd, 2009 12:51
Very introspective, thought-provoking and nicely written article! Keep it up!!
April 3rd, 2009 13:20
You have expressed very beautifully the influence of our beautiful religion in our day to day life. You have seen it with your young untarnished and unbiased eyes how faith can transform our ideas about life and how to live it. Keep writing good articles like this so we can also savour the essence of the beauty of life around us.Excellento!!!!
April 3rd, 2009 13:49
Arnav:
Your article on self realization and understading of a meaningful life is excellent and useful to many others in today’s perspective. I would like to publish the article in this year Houston Durga Puja magazine and want wide circulation.
Best wishes,
Mrinaluncle
April 3rd, 2009 17:04
Dear Arnav,
An excellent article on self realization from youths point of view. Well written, Bravo! I strongly feel, you will have made an impact on our society, if 5% of our younger generation will make an effort to read your articles, 1% in understanding your views and 0.1% in practicing them. Hence keep writing, publishing and spreading the good work!
Best wishes,
Arunaaunty
April 4th, 2009 08:05
Arnab
congratulations on your insights! I discovered spirituality in the services.
You will be amazed to see how religious our soldiers in India are ! even though they are training and practising destruction of the enemy by violence, they have very gentle and kind hearts. A paradox..yet true. its futile chasing happiness, since we realise ( often too late in life ) that true happiness is what you create around you, by deeds & thought.
I like your style of script.keep it up.
Prashant
April 4th, 2009 16:49
As long as the goal is to practice a healthy way of life -that is great keep at it. But if you are going to mix this with convoluted religion and idols and rituals -it is a disservice to yourself and to the true essence and glory of hinduism-which is nothing but a peaceful culture of secular people who lived on a fertile land by the river.
April 4th, 2009 20:32
It is wonderful and refreshing reading your experience that has impacted you in a profound way. I wish you can come to our Durgabari and share this with our new graduates during our graduation day celebration. Have a wonderful life journey.
April 4th, 2009 23:39
Arnav,
It was wonderful reading your article. We all need a place for support and spirituality will give you that. Hinduism is the “Sanatan Dharma” which will provide solace and enchantment for all your searches in life It is indeed very encouraging to see young people like you are yearning to learn more about the Hindu religion and culture. You have a gift of writing! Hope to get more such work from you in future.
Santasri and Partha Sen
April 5th, 2009 05:31
Arnav,
It was truly a well-written article. Written with such ease without failing to make the point. We can also see an awakening mind. Hope to see more from you.
April 5th, 2009 19:07
The article is a good exposition of the reconciliation between attending shakha/doing shakha work and living a materially rich life in America. This will help clarify/answer a good deal of unanswered questions/confusions in the minds of many youth associated with shakhas. I would recommend circulating this article to youth/adults in shakhas of the US, UK and other such western countries.
April 6th, 2009 03:07
Good Job Arnav.
April 6th, 2009 04:28
Great article and well presented and thanks for appreciating our culture which youngsters today choose to ignore wish more young students join and feel this experience do find some more organisations like vanvasi kalyan ashram you will get to experience tribal life and life in forest they organise van yatra try it some day
April 6th, 2009 09:33
Arnav,
Performing Swamysevak duties is indeed a good way to get away from the cosmetic / materialistic disillusionment we suffer at various stages of our adult life. Probably a stepping stone to understand intricacies of human life!
All in all, an excellent introspection!
All the best!
April 6th, 2009 17:26
Excellent writing Arnav. This article should serve as an inspiration to many others who may be shying away from our culture, its foundation and diversity. Many times when we sway with the wind it is this grass root realization that holds us down and tied to our roots. It is interesting to see how some shakha sessions have inspired these thought provoking questions in your and our minds. I hope you will keep this literary work alive and keep writing. Fantastic article….
April 6th, 2009 19:20
Arnav,
Your insightful comments are useful for us to have the hope that the younger networked generation is willing to consider this important question of balance in life and how and what to aim for. Congrtulations in letting us older generation know that there are those of you who are thinking of the larger issues and nto just chasing after “success”. At this time in the worlkd this ray of hope is very refreshing and positive. Thank you.
April 6th, 2009 22:35
This is such a great article Arnav! Your comments about the varg are so inspiring and I am happy that you could come! :)
April 7th, 2009 02:46
Arnab,
Great article! I sincerely wish that this would inspire more children of your generation to venture on a journey towards inner truth and self realization Wish you all the best for all your future endeavors.
April 7th, 2009 21:02
Arnab,
Excellent article. Please inspire other kids in our community and let them know where India’s soul really lies and not to forget their heritage. Come to Bangla pathsala please to share your experience with the kids.
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October 3rd, 2009 13:13
hey u know Rudraji?
October 17th, 2009 21:01
Davij,
I do know Rudra. He and I attend the same shaka
December 8th, 2009 17:18
well written post!!!
March 16th, 2011 18:20
Very good article Arnav. I feel embarrassed to read it close to two years after it was published and just about the time North East Yuva Varg is happening again. Hope you are well on course in your journey of knowing your self - identity, culture, religion, et. al.